ADOPT
Searching once more
For the truth about my life
Looking for some closure
To the pain that I have felt
Thinking back
On the things I have done
Wondering why
I don’t know my true roots
Not finding any proof
Yet never giving up hope
Deciding to wait awhile longer
Before I try once more
FEAR
I tremble
As I hide in fear
I shiver
As I look through shaking eyes
I tremble
Hoping my voice doesn’t give me away
I wait
Hoping that this will be over soon
I sit
Waiting for the end
Shots ring out
One flies by my head
Another one hits
I am dead
COLUMBINE
I sit in the corner
Afraid to even move
Thinking that they’ll find me
And that I won’t see next year
My next birthday; my first crush
Getting a car; getting married
Why did they have to come here?
What did we do to them?
Now I hear the screams of classmates
As their lives draw to an end
I hear my friend confess her faith
And then I hear a thud
They’re leaving the room now
Much to our relief
The teacher softly whispers
“Let’s wait for the police”
We wait for what seems like an eternity
Waiting for some help
As soon as it gets there
We give a joyous yelp
The police take us out through a window
In any other situation, I’d have enjoyed the ride
But in my present condition
All I want to do is run and hide
Now I see the paramedics
As they bring out my friends
I try to contain the emotion
Then realize it will be fine that I cried.
PAIN
You as me questions
That I do not have answers for
Your life is closed to me
Locked behind a heavy door
Your eyes strip me of my innocence
Not letting me live a normal life
Your words cut me down
Like butter by a knife
Your gaze tears me apart
Causing pain, impossible to tell
Your perfect life is painful
It makes me want to yell
Your attitude is condescending
Bringing me to the ground
My emotional wounds, never ending
They feel like they weigh a pound